June 12, 2012
As I love to plan and play an active role in the creation of my life, I've always struggled with this notion of surrender. Especially now, when things aren't exactly unfolding as I would have planned them (didn't think the big C would be part of this story!), it's been an interesting struggle to just "let go and let God". What does that mean exactly and what does that really look like?
I recall hearing a teacher describe surrender not as just sitting back and letting go of all effort, as it's sometimes perceived, but as a choice to truly engage with what life is presenting. Surrender is not passive and static, but active and dynamic. It's paying attention to the subtle ways that Spirit guides your life, noticing where you're being led, moment by moment, rather than trying to control where you're going all the time. It's setting the intention to pay attention.
The more I release control and embrace surrender, the more I feel held and guided, and deeply loved.
"When we stop trying to control events, they fall into natural order, an order that works. We’re at rest while a power much greater than our own takes over, and it does a much better job than we could have done. We learn to trust that the power that holds galaxies together can handle the circumstances of our relative little lives.”
“Surrender means, by definition, giving up attachment to results. When we surrender… we let go of our attachment how things happen on the outside and we become more concerned with what happens on the inside. The experience of love is a choice we make, a mental decision to see love is the only real purpose and value in any situation.”
- Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love